Okay, so I haven't posted anything in awhile but I have been in a transition period.
For the longest time, I have had had this dual personality. I have believed in my heart that God has a plan for me, in fact I told a lot of people the same thing...but something buried inside my head refused to believe it. Sometimes if I were to read a promise I would add the few words..."except for Joe".
Life has been troublesome over the last few years that's true...but there has been a purpose. I believe it was God's way of telling me to fully rely on Him.
I have planning issues. I NEED to know how to go about things. I HAVE to put the pieces together so I can understand it. I have been working so hard on trying to figure things out that I've missed the point up to now.
I'm not supposed to figure it out. I either have to believe in my head AND heart that God's promises will come true or not. There no such thing as a lukewarm believer and I believe that's where I was at.
Revelation 3:16 says: " So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth."
It continues though, 19. "Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent.
20. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.
21. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne.
I believe that God gave me a dream of what He wants me to be. A Recovery Pastor. Leading men and women into a life full of grace: Eph 3: 19-21 "and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,
21. to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."
And though I don't know how He's going to accomplish this...because sometimes all I can see is the impossible, I know He can do it today. Matthew 19:26 ASV
And Jesus looking upon [them] said to them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible. I am thankful for the fact that He has readied me to do this and I am excited about the plans He has for me.
Thanks for letting me share.