Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Changing from "have to" to "get to"

So it's been four days into my re-commitment and something has changed already. To be honest, I really thought I would go through the "have to's" for awhile in order to develop this habit. The weird thing is now I'm already at the the "get to's". I can't wait to start up my computer and go to my Bible reading plan. I'm anxious (in a good way) to see what the Lord has to say to me today.

Like I said, a new chapter started and I can't wait to see it develop. Praise to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Monday, April 12, 2010

What do I do when I can't hear God?

Over the past few months, I have had this question. So many things have occurred that I can't even wrap my mind around it. And where has it gotten a point of fear. Fear of the unknown.
You see over the past 13 years or so, I've always had fear. I'm a worrier. And although it doesn't always make an outward appearance it is always there...lying in cover until something new happens and it gets uncovered.
Most of the time I'm capable of covering it back up again or at least to put it to rest by serving in ministry of some sort. Helping others...service. It always gets me out of my head.
But lately, I am worried that I can't hear God talk to me and I can't figure out why.
I feel that my prayers are going up to the sky and nobody hears them.

Then it comes to me...and it's a dumb thing on my part. I wonder why God isn't talking to me and it always boils down to these two things.
1) I'm having a conversation with myself. I'm not taking time to listen. I shoot up my prayer and then move on to whatever I was doing. No chance for God to even provoke a thought because I've already directed my attention to something else. TV, conversation, Facebook, Radio..whatever. It seems that I've become addicted to "white noise". That I almost need static running in my head in order to survive. In case this is you...this is wrong. We need to make room in our head for God to direct. It's a great tool of the enemy to keep us stuck in "busyness". This time he has done it to me. My next question is Why do I let Satan do that...well that's a whole other blog.
2) I'm not spending anytime in the Word of God. I have all sort of tools that I can use, should I choose to and when I get out of the habit of using them...I lose them. I have Bibles, Commentaries, Dictionaries, Online programs, email newsletters...all of it. But I don't use them. I may skim over the email newsletter from Os. I may glance at my Bible reading plan in order to just check off the day...but I'm not really soaking in the word of God, I'm more wading in it.

The funny (funny strange, not funny haha) is that when I'm using all the tools...wait for it...God does speak to me. He does relieve my fear and worry, He does restore my serenity and He does work in my life.
Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

So my re-commitment is to begin (yet again) to utilize these tools. To follow the suggestion of, Psalm 62:5-8 NLT
"5 Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. 6 He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken. 7 My victory and honor come from God alone. He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me. 8 O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge."

Leave a comment if this helps you or if you have any other suggestions to help us all hear God speak to us.

Thanks for letting me share.